Ever since i have been having mental health issues 4 years now. my mother and i have had a weird relationship. At first she was supportive. Then she didn't talk to me for a year and a half. Then all of a sudden she wanted to "start a new relationship, and become close the way mothers and daughters are supposed to be" her words not mine. For a long time I really believed her and thought she had changed and that she really does love me. She keeps doing this. Disappearing for a long time and all of a sudden calling me and getting my hopes up. For example about a year ago she invited me to her yoga class (she is the instructor) I went there and everyone kept asking who i was and how did I know "c" my mother. I told them i was her daughter and they couldn't believe it. They kept saying that my mom brings pictures of her family and talks about them all the time but has never mentioned me. This hurt so bad, but i didn't say anything to my mother, I never do. The only reason i was driving 2 hours to go to her class was so I could see her. I stopped going and we didn't talk for another i don't know year i guess. Then this last christmas i was finally working again had friends, was the happiest i had ever been. Came to terms with just having a christmas with my husband and myself I hadn't had a christmas with my family in 4 years. 2 days before Christmas my mother called out of nowhere and invited us to christmas dinner (first time in 4 years). i cried and told her i would think about it. I debated up until the last minute whether or not to go. On one hand I wanted to start a new relationship, but on the other hand i am not stupid and new it would be no different than before. I decided to go. And now i am not working, depressed, suicidal, unhappy have no friends and feel the worst i have ever felt. I knew this would happen so why did i go. i shouldn't have. I was treated like a distant cousin with some horrible contagious disease. No one hugged me or asked how i was doing. I had lost 60 lbs since the last time i had seen my mom and she didn't say one thing to me. I bought a $100 digital picture frame for her and a card and letter telling her all the lies that might fix our relationship (ex. how she is such a wonderful mother, and i am the person i am because of her, blah blah blah) Do you know she looked at my wrapped gifts and said she would open them later "in her own time" We ate dinner and left And i haven't heard from her since. No thank you or anything, I don't even know if she opened the gifts. I want to confront my mother about how she has hurt me not only over the past 4 years but throughout my entire existance but i am not sure how or if it would be a good idea. i don't expect anyone to answer this (although it would be appreciated) I am sorry if I picked the wrong forum to post this in. and i am sorry it is so long.