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Old Sep 30, 2018, 06:12 AM
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Yesterday, I hiked a couple of miles, went to my dog training class, and managed about 20 minutes at the kickboxing gym. I had intended to do tell full 30 minutes workout, but I had some scheduling issues that resulted in me only having had a granola bar a few hours beforehand and I started to get lightheaded while working out, so, considering I was also battling a migraine, I decided to stop while I was ahead.

I managed to stay within my calorie intake goal, around 1800. I had a craving for Taco Bell for dinner and understood that it's not that I needed junk food but that I wanted a certain flavor, so I stopped on my way home from the dog park and got some ground beef and other stuff and I made some nachos for dinner, except I used healthy ingredients and instead of chips I used a cut up cucumber. I tried that on a whim, never even heard of it, just wanted to swap out for a veggie, and it was actually good. It definitely tasted a little different but I actually quite enjoyed it. Absolutely covered the craving I was having and stayed on calorie budget.

Kickboxing gym is closed today, so it will be mostly be walking my dogs and hiking for exercise, which is okay because I'm a bit sore now from the kickboxing workouts.

I feel really good, like getting stronger already, but it was super depressing to look in the mirror before hopping in the shower yesterday evening. I wish I could black out all my mirrors for a bit so I can focus on feeling good and not on the huge belly I have right now.

Oh well.

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