Hello
I just wanted to share my story (sorry for the long post).
I really want to hear from mothers here. Reason why.. because I have never shared my feelings to any other mother out there and want to know their prospective. If you have a friend like myself, and know that I have such feelings to be cuddled and breastfed, what would you?
Now, at the age of 26, as a grown woman, it's very rare when someone shows mother affection towards me.
But inside of me, I feel a little baby.
I met this lady, few months ago, who is like 5 years older than me (31 yo), but she's a mother of 3 kids already. A great mother actually, who spoils me with food and sometime invites me over her place - as a friend. We both have good time, shared laughs and good memories. Her husband is also nice and always cares.
But then,.. I developed that little feeling towards her as a mother. Yes, that mother-figure obsession, and it's sooo intense. I'd imagine her being my carer, my mother-figure, ...etc.
This relationship put some insane emotions and thoughts in my head, because I need her motherhood feelings also, so much.
I now feel more physically in need for affection. She's there, she's caring. A tiny 'hello/goodbye hug' doesn't do justice for my feelings. I want cuddles, I want to smell her and sleep beside her. I even want her to put me to sleep, play with may hair until I fall asleep. *Insomnia sufferer here*.
I actually - and I admit - that I sometime when I'm sick, will just imagine her breastfeeding me to sleep. *She's bfd the little one now*. I know .. this is insane, but I can't help myself.
I just want to try and clam under her arms.
I don't know how to cope with those feelings, they won't go away they just get worsen the more I'm away from her
I never cuddled with her, never tried,, I'm too shy and she's not too touchy
--As a side note, I'm good in all other aspects of life. Educated, good paying job, taking care of my father, an active member of several mother-children related associations and local charity organisations.
Please help