I am 40 years married for the past 15 years
I have a sexual fantasy of my wife either seducing or exposed naked and sometimes having sex with other
knowing that me and my wife are conservative we don't have sex outside marriage nor wear reveling clothes (we have been married for 15 years and have a good sexual life)
I started having this fantasy several years before (with no intention to fulfill it )
however nowadays when my wife is having medical examination and doctor check her body I am aroused
I am always put a senerio for my fantasy that we do it against our will (either someone threaten us or under the influence of drugs so as not to feel guilt against my self -as this is against all my values -
I need your help to tell me why I have this fantasy,is it related to the feeling of submission and humiliated or to see someone pleasing her much more , knowing that she enjoys sex with me
I was never abused or humiliated in my childhood
I remembered I had wearied fantasy when i was young child, that I was aroused of the idea that my mom could seduce my teacher or her colleague
at that age I used to spy on my mom when taking shower or try to touch her while she was sleeping
I dont know is these related to each other
I am afraid that i would feel weak and do this fantasy
appreciate your help