Well...I've been on an emotional rollercoaster for two days dealing with my dysfunctional family. I literally turned off my phone so that I couldn't get any of their calls or texts (or calls and texts from anyone associated with them). I was that fed up that I went into seclusion. I poured out my heart to my brother in an emotional email.

Now, I learned that two of them are still just gossiping about me (I must be the topic of conversation lately). I'll have to be careful what I tell them. I poured out my heart to my brother, and by his response he doesn't really understand at all. He's using the same excuses I'm learning now that dysfunctional families use. He sounds like my narcissistic grandmother in his reply to me.

I'm over here tearing my heart out and they are doing just fine. Just gossiping about me. Grandma telling lies as usual. And it just finally hit me. I need to go ahead and live my life, work some things out for my mental health, and move on. They are doing just fine without me, and I have to stop worrying about them. I'm out of that horrible situation now. I'm free. I still pray for them, but distance is what I need and there's nothing wrong with that.

I'm killing myself here and they're just fine. Wow, maybe one day they'll understand. But for now, I've got to live my life.