Seriously, you are very lucky your T has strong boundaries. Im going through a type of hell right now cause mine doesn't. To the point i filed an ethics complaint against her and it was accepted. She had no boundaries then i got her in trouble by accident then she abandoned me completely at the first sight of personal trouble. This is after months of me keeping my mouth shut and defending and protecting her reputation. Thank God it doesn't hurt like it used to. I totally understand qanting that closeness. I wanted it so bad and i got it. When my T was on her honeymoon she was dreaming about me ( actually having nightmares tjat somwthing bad happened to me) She said no contact but told me when she got back that she almost contacted me she was so worried. To be honest it felt good. It felt really good to know that she was thinking of me cause i was definitely rhinking about her. In the end though, she was mitigating and gaslighting me. In the end she completely abandoned me. Anyway sorry for venting but i actually envy you in a way
All the good stuff wasnt worth what happened in the end