I only recently realized that I didn't just have bipolar disorder but also CPTSD. It actually made me feel better, because I felt like I failed bipolar treatment. I wasn't getting better, I was still having trauma reactions and meltdowns, and I thought I just couldn't manage my emotions. Despite decades of therapy and medications. I thought it was my fault.

I'm still stressed out and scared, but at least now I feel like I'm getting the right kind of therapy and I'm actually getting to a point where I can manage my emotions in the workplace. Which is huge since I've been fired a bunch of times and I'm unemployed and looking for a job now.

Yes, there are more layers to uncover, but having this diagnosis means knowing how to uncover them and what kind of support you need.