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Old Oct 01, 2018, 10:17 AM
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I've been pretty good this weekend. I'm trying to not weigh myself until Friday.

Yesterday was a pretty light day on the exercise. Just some walking. I was supposed to go hiking this morning but it was raining so I switched my schedule around to start work early and try to hike this evening.

I stayed mostly on my calorie budget except I had popcorn last night so went over, but was still in deficit overall.

I'm feeling pretty hopeful now that I started kickboxing. I've got it scheduled in almost every day this week.

I had thought maybe I'll start up in ballet class again, but I can't right now, not until I lose some of this weight. Not because I don't want to, but if you ever been in a dance class, you'd know you're surrounded by mirrors. You can't NOT look at yourself. And as much as I love dancing, I think I'd just find it demoralizing right now to have to stare at myself in a mirror for 90 minutes. I'll focus on the kickboxing for right now and when I'm starting to feel stronger and more confident, jump back into ballet.

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