Thanks Yzen.
I hate feeling D come back and feel like I am watching it happen and not able to prevent a relapse in symptoms from happening. I just sort of feel like I’m ducking my head under water to avoid the full impact of the waves instead of trying to actually fight them and swim back to shore. If that makes any sense.

Mostly I’m just not liking the path my thoughts are taking. Idk. Maybe things will get better instead of worse? Idk.