Because I didn't understand what was happening, what to call it
Because I was ashamed
Because I thought it was my fault
Because I felt mean for not wanting him, and like I had deceived him
Because I thought I was supposed to like it
Because I would have to admit it to myself, and loose whatever self respect I had
Because I was this tough kid, and if anyone in school found out, I would be free game
Because I didn't know it was illegal
I've reported him now, though, 19 years later. Nothing will ever happen to him, but at least my story will forever be in the police files, as will his name.