My rude awakening
Was hastily followed
By a three month
Stint in hospital rehab.
My parents stopped
Visiting and I had to
Stop by theirs to
Keep up appearances
Because I lost it
At one visit.
I can't remember a
Word I said
I just remember I
Was that caught up
In the emotions
That I had sweat
Sliding down my face
And my mum
Getting moist eyes.
In an instant. Tears.
Oh, I can't bear seeing
You like this she
Said in a look to David.
And the nurse said:
You can't go with
Your parents in this state.
I must have wanted
All my belongings.
When I seen them
At their house
David jumped down
My throat saying:
Told you she would
Try and blame us.
Then he layed down
On the coach
And switched off.

Being sat In rehab all
Day, means one thing:
You can't escape thinking
About the past.
When your days
Melt into one another.
And I had been turning
Over in my head
One particular night.
David did what he
Could to submit me and
And my mum slapped
Me with such muster
And meaning glaring me
In the eyes calling
Me by the most derogatory
Blow a female can get.
I had never felt
So utterly worthless.
Like the slap
Had branded the words
Onto my face.