THIS IS REALLY BUGGING ME because I am loving how I'm feeling lately. It's like I've been cured, though I fear this could just be hypomania! I'm animated, energetic, and feeling inspired.

I'm normally incredibly socially anxious and awkward but this past month I've been a total extrovert that initiates conversations and makes friends. I've been proactive in trying to find new work, walking into places and asking directly if they have positions available. I normally could not do anything close to this.

I was in the hospital a few weeks ago after I tried to kill myself via a med overdose but I wasn't even depressed. I spent a week there and I felt like I owned the place. I was talking to everybody and introducing myself and trying to make friends. The nurse said I was a-okay for discharge despite the staff and social worker going NO NO NO.

I feel like I'm finally in control of my life and nothing can stop my plan of moving out of my parents' place. It's time for me to take charge.

My therapist and pdoc both say I'm still manic though? I know what manic feels like and I don't think this is really it?

I've also been engaging in a lot of music making and actually bought a subscription to a virtual instrument service for my DAW and I'm loving it.

Does this sound at all hypo-like to you guys? I'm sleeping normally if that's any help.