Saw T today, would say T2 but now he's my only T besides our MC. Told him that I terminated with Emdr therapist, and he told me that he got 2 calls from him. He said the 1st one was asking to talk, and the 2nd one was saying how he just saw me and no longer needed to talk. 💁 Told him I think thw session went well with Emdr on how I handled it and didn't feel like I burned any bridges. He say he's glad to hear that and asked if I had any thoughts about seeing him only. I told him, "I'm all yours, have fun because I'm pretty messed up." He didn't seem to think so and we talked about that a little. Didn't tell him how I've been feeling numb since Thursday and we got talking about other things. He asked how I think it'll feel coning 3 times a week and I told him I'm not sure I'll have anything to talk about at the end of the week and it might be awkward the first few times because I've never seen a therapist so many times in one week. Also talked about my H asking me for sex all day today after he told our MC yesterday that he's okay with not having sex and will wait for me to be ready. I told him what I told my H that I didn't want to numb myself out like 2 weeks ago to have sex. T asked if I would do that again and I said probably because I don't want to mentally deal with it if I give in. He seemed concerned about that and then I stopped talking about it. Talked a bit more about other random things about my past and then ended it there.