You've made it through another attempt. Chances are your luck will run out one of these times.
I am saddened -- for you and for those closest to you-- that you continue to feel a need to OD.
I feel your need to continue to OD needs serious attention, first and foremost.
People who have been hurt by your attempts may need time to sort out their feelings. Please allow them time to heal.
I hope you also find healing.

WC