Hey.
Just stopping in to say hi and check in.

Shiit is pretty crappy on this side of the fence right now.
For once I actually have a reason to be depressed and anxious bc dealing with health stuff.
Somehow I thought having my low mood match my situation wouldn’t feel quite as bad as when I get depression for no apparent reason. I was wrong. It just means that now I have 2 problems instead of one.

I can’t figure out how to keep the depression out, it’s like I am watching it take over and can’t do anything to prevent it. It always comes back and every single time I feel surprised to once again be stuck In it. And every single time when I’m in it, it feels like this is how I have always felt and always will. But I am just too exhausted to fight it this time. So I’m not going to. I’m gonna just survive for a while and try not to expect too much from myself besides working and feeding my cats and keeping myself alive. So much for high standards.

Anyhow sending everyone some good thoughts. Hopefully things will turn soon and Depression will leave me the fuuck alone for a while. Take care.