I am struggling with feeling a sense of closure without being able to communicate with my ex T. Regardless of how it ended, I want to beleive she cares and was hoping for some objective feedback. I understand she was my therapist and therefore hired as a professional, however, there was also a relationship there too. I am afraid I destroyed her caring by crossing her boundary. Today she saw me in the hall and we made brief eye contact, but she looked away quickly. She also looked very nervous to see me as I’m guessing she knows how painful this week has been (I’m having a hard time finding another therapist and so my mom called my team at the clinic and to see if they had any more referrals since the ones ex T gave me are either not taking my insurance or have a full practice). I feel like the only way for me to move on is to beleive ex T cares and somehow conceptualize her leaving suddenly. And I really don’t know how to do it.