I sure understand the fear. I was terrified recently about a medical situation when something fell through the cracks. Eventually the terror spurred me to action, even though I couldn't help but have a meltdown on the phone. It worked out OK, though, because the helpline nurse was able to listen anyway and got the information to message the doctor, who eventually responded.

Can you insist, as you have written here, that you are decompensating and need some extra support? I do hope that she replies about your work situation. I don't see how would be beneficial to you to go in, since they have cancelled your work. Perhaps the next session you all could strategize about how best to go forward? Seems like it needs a plan, not just some stopgap ideas. And your opinions and information certainly need to be a part of that.

Do you think that the natural disaster might have affected you? Maybe that's something that she hasn't considered? I expect that can be overwhelming.

So sorry you're feeling alone. I know how that is, it really sucks.

You know what's going on with you, she doesn't. Maybe if she's OK overall, this is just a little "blip". Hang on. . .Sounds like you're trying to, including reaching out for support here.