It sounds like a poorly executed attempt to help empower you. Or more likely-she's trying to get at a conflict where part of you doesn't let yourself while the other part of you really wants to enjoy things. That sounds more like it.

Is your T psychoanalytic? My T used to say stuff like that to me sometimes.

The former-does that really work for anyone? Ultimately, we hold ourselves back, whether its unconscious or within our control or not...but only until we don't, which is when we are ready or able to overcome the inertia. The latter-the conflict-that can help give people a push in another direction sometimes.

Yuck. Not good timing with the evacuation displacement, when you're already feeling chaotic. Now on top of that, you feel guilty and self-hate for not doing what you 'should 'be doing. Don't be so hard on yourself-give yourself a break.