@LT Unfortunately, my T doesn't do email.

@guileless I think she's psychodynamic. Maybe? Of course I want to enjoy things. I guess I just don't think the issue is about me holding myself back in some way. I mean, we were talking about my job walking dogs, not skydiving, meeting new people, or something like that. There's just no reason that I would not be "letting myself enjoy" walking dogs, because there's no incentive in doing so. I guess I felt kind of insulted because what she asked insinuates that I gain something by being so miserable. Would I enjoy my job if I wasn't horribly depressed? Yes. But it doesn't follow that I can magically cure my own depression by deciding to "let" myself enjoy my job. That's what it felt like she was saying.