I know . I wish i didn't have the constant desires i have, but at the same time I couldn't imagine life not craving sex or stimulation. How would I cope and deal with difficult situations? Its almost like I enjoy the obsession. I do in a way, I just don't enjoy being the only one in the relationship with the obsession. I feel like I've made my husband my sex slave poor thing.

Mine started very young, oddly. I started watching porn at age 7(more curious than anything, but also aroused). I started masturbating pretty young as well, for a female. As i got older it turned from curiosity to me wanting it bad. I went through bouts of depression, i was so angry and I just wanted sex, not even love, just sex. I was more interested in older men than boys my age, something about them having control over me, teaching me a thing or two and me proving that I wasn't such a little girl. Now, as an adult, its a need. If I don't get sex I will self pleasure. Its better than having mood swings or getting depressed. Plus, if i want a release I should get it. What's so bad about that. You know?

I guess I'm still trying to figure things out myself. The forums are my only support right now...