That’s an interesting theory. Perhaps I’m trying to avoid being vulnerable by seeking attention in negative ways? It’s a lot easier to get “in trouble” with her and deal with that, than to deal with these new attachment feelings that I didn’t want. I kinda am feeling like I just want someone to take care of me right now. I know she can’t do that, in reality. But emotionally, she’s the best I’ve got...And I don’t like that because I’m scared because my last T left me very suddenly after I got incredibly attached to her. So maybe it’s fear, as well? I want to act out right now so bad, so that she has to pay attention to me. I don’t get it. I only want negative attention. She praised me today and it didn’t feel good at all. But a couple of weeks ago when I was really acting out (or as she put it, throwing an adult version of a temper tantrum), she was very firm with me/lectured me for a bit about my behavior (which I’m okay with, that’s what I asked for when I started with her because it works for me). That made me feel good. I feel like my brain is all sorts of messed up.