I've spent the past four hours at the hospital. Good chance I'm spending a lot more. I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm hurt and I'm pissed off; just like the other times this has happened. I had to fight her tooth and nail to come into the hospital, she became resistant when she realized what parking lot she was in. I just don't know what to do anymore. This happens anywhere from once to three times a year and I have no clue how to get her to give a **** about her life. Who am I to do it anyway? I mean, I'm nine kinds of screwed up and have suicidal thoughts all of the time. What business do I have to try and get her to stop this? The thing is that I've been there and I know how it works, I understand the ****ing agony you're in prior to doing it. But I don't know how the hell to stop it for anyone.