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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
Maybe I'm interpreting things wrong, but it sounds like you have a lot of anxiety that's leading to some connection issues with your daughter and leading to the emotional fallouts and anger?
Seroquel helped me a lot with my anger issues, as well as anxiety issues, until the dose got too high and gave me depression. But I wonder if increasing your seroquel could help. That's just a guess and something you could ask your pdoc about.
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I will mention it to the pdoc, the anger issue at least. I don’t think he will up the Seroquel due to my being small. I have gotten my weight up, but still not to the normal range. I have had this problem with my daughter for awhile now.
I also dissociate a lot, I suppose to ignore everything upsetting me. It is hard to ground myself when things get rough as panic and dissociation tend to be my first reactions.
I am falling into depression too I think. I see the pdoc on Tuesday, but the T tomorrow. I am still very anxious. I hope it will improve once I pick my daughter up. They have early release today at noon (not sure why).
It is hard because she is very stubborn, and I have to take into account she is a child knowing we are worried about money, may lose our house or have to move if H gets a better job. She obviously knows about the CPS stuff, that I have a mental illness (though I don’t know that she understands most of the time, I feel like I like the MI rules me, not that I struggle to control it). H is getting a shorter fuse what with finances, the HOA, job searches. H is not physically abusive, just lost his temper (not yelling though) yesterday when my daughter asked for help for a math problem, but she had a hard time getting H to understand the assignment fully (they had to work out all the multiple choices to show why all the answer choices except the right one were wrong), and obviously they had to find the right answer doing the original problem.
My daughter does struggle with oral communication a lot, so understanding what she is saying can be hard to follow. She will talk, hesitate, talk, hesitate, and a simple statement/problem takes ages for her to communicate at times. I struggle with understanding her too, trying to follow her long statements without getting confused or having my attention wander or just wanting to hear whatever it is in straight, simple sentences, not wandering sentence parts. So now she has no idea when either H or myself are moody and can’t follow a problem explanation in 5 minutes when 1 or 2 simple sentences would have done it. Though I do wonder if she talks that way to keep getting our attention subconsciously even. It is a lot for a 10 year old.
Maybe it’s unreasonable irritability from the bipolar, or bipolar mixed, guess it could come from the onset of panic too.
But I still feel like such a bad mom
