I am feeling so depressed because my best friend cannot stay today.When she left I actually broke down in tears,see she use to sit with me three days a week no more because they gave her Fridays off from work,now today she says she cannot stay.I depend on her I have told her that to she didnt get mad actually she cried.When she is here with me I feel better she takes away my depression and anxieties for a little while,.Now I wont be able to visit with her again until nextWed unless of course she cant stay again, I hate this because o Fridays she was able to stay for three hours no more, we would watch Days together and sometimes movies,I dont know or understand what happens to me why am I crying when she leaves? Part of it is because I am afraid of losing her.She is such a beautiful person. I have been upset ever since she told me she wont be working anymore on Fridays however I did tell her a couple of times that she doesnt haveto work to visit with me she knows but I dont think she will come I mean she never did before. I miss her when she isnt here ,she knows that too.She is the only one who will come and visit with me and when she cant I feel so lonely and depressed,I never realized how loving and caring for someone this much would hurt when she cannot stay.I am so darn lonely,When my mom was still alive at least I could call her now she is gone .I have nobody but my best friend.When I cry I feel stupid.I just cannot help it.