I currently try to see my T once a week, depending on availability, but I'm paying 100% out of pocket. While I can 'technically' afford it, I have literally saved only $300 for the entire year of 2018 because my expenses are basically the same as my income. I'm a saver, I was brought up in a single parent income where having savings consistently was super important, and I feel so guilty and anxious because of my cash flow right now. I have a job, a mortgage, car payments, bills, etc., but nothing imminent I have to save for, but I still feel financially irresponsible. I have been working since I was 16 and I've managed to save every year since then except this year, so this is also just really hard for me to swallow. I've got lots of attachment/trust issues and trauma and anything less than weekly usually results in me spiralling down the thoughts of 'he doesn't care, my problems are stupid' etc and that really hinders progress, but I don't know if I can continue weekly sessions at this rate. I'm also going to be super embarrassed asking to cancel half my weekly standing appointments due to money and I feel like he'll think I can't take care of myself or I'm not working hard enough or something. I also don't know if I'm wanting to reduce the sessions because I want to avoid working on issues and this is another defence mechanism? For those of you that have chosen to reduce sessions (not recommended or forced by T), how did it go? Did you bring up the reason with your T, such as finances or being busy or something?