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Originally Posted by Soybeans
Does this explain why if I have a really good session, that feeling of connection and trust only lasts for like 2 days before I start thinking about what ifs and how it might not be the same next time?
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Yes, it does.
By the way, I have the same problem and I was experiencing the same mistrust in therapy as you do. The good feeling of connection and trust, whenever it happened didn't last more than a few days, even though the therapist seemingly did nothing to indicate that they were untrustworthy. Actually, it was a bit more complicated than that, but I don't want to get off track.
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Originally Posted by Soybeans
I have zero confidence in my ability to handle anything... 
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That's ok. This may change if you get a different perspective on things. I was unable to cope with relational problems either until my outlook on relationships changed. It's natural to be on alert and to get traumatized when people don't deliver what you expect them to and when you have a history of trauma.
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Originally Posted by Soybeans
I think he phrased it like he promises to not terminate me but I have asked him like what if you get hit by a bus. I don't expect this promise to last forever, I just want reassurance that he's not going to terminate the next session out of the blue.
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I don't think he'll terminate out of the blue. Terminations usually don't happen out of the blue, but sometimes therapy comes to a halt. It may happen because the client comes to the most painful and difficult material to deal with and, even though the therapist might have done a decent job up to that point, from that point on they might not know what to do. Unfortunately, most of the time, they don't take responsibility for the limits of their knowledge and competence and start getting irritated with the client. Those are critical times when there is a big chance that termination will happen, and, if the therapist doesn't know how to navigate those crises (which most of them don't) the termination can become traumatic for the client.
So, if I were your therapist I'd still not promise not to terminate. He doesn't know how your work will unfold in the future, what challenges and obstacles you and he may encounter and if the situation may change so much that termination will be necessary.