I have actually been looking for a DBT T outside of the program and found a potential prospect, however, I still have to figure out my financial situation since they don’t take insurance. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to swing seeing them but many DBT therapists/programs don’t take insurance and the ones that do have incredibly long waiting lists that can also be pretty unpredictable (estimations being 1-10 months, like what kind of an estimation is that?? Lol)

The reason I have been continuing to go to the clinic is because my dietician aka the clinical director is still letting me see her for a few more months. I know there are mixed opinions on whether this is good for me/prolonging the grief etc, but I fear that if I leave now/cancel my sessions and change my mind later, my dietician won’t let me come back and I’ll feel a lot of regret. Also, while losing my T has been incredibly painful and has causeed inevitable tension on my relationship with my dietician, I want to feel as much closure as possible. I am hoping that in 3 months time, I will be in a much better place and feel better about saying goodbye to my dietician. Of course, in the midst of all this, is a deep longing to hold onto connection with T. It’s difficult for me to see her in the hall, but it’s also the only type of “contact” I have left with her at this point and that in itself is very hard for me to let go of.