I know this is probably wrong for me to hope but I am hoping that my T will give me more closure and/or change her mind a year or 2 from now after I get over the obsessive attachment. It’s so hard for me to understand how this can be permanent. I am not trying to diminish the impact of my boundary crossing (and I probably won’t ever fully comprehend the effect until I become a T someday), but the relationship felt so deep. It’s easier for me to understand her needing space, but I really don’t understand how to she could end it forever.