well i just took a hot shower... and i still am not doing to well ... i started loosing it again on the way home from work... not such a good thing when i am driving... maybe it's time to take the xanax... the problem is the present has it's own issues that trigger panic attacks so i feel like i am bouncing back and forth... not liking it too much... when i call and talk to my grandbabies it helps... nothing is better then to hear my oldest (24 months) say "nana i love you!" but the fear of hearing things aren't ok with my son and daughter in law... is holding me back...lyn