Forgot to mention, mom passed away when I was 16.

My relationship with her wasn't bad. I loved her, she cared lot and gave unconditional support but she had never showed emotions toward me. She didn't reject me, it's just .. she didn't initiate any emotion. She had neutral emotions towards me. And I was happy with that (didn't ask for more).

Because I also was sorehead as a teen. I wasn't mature enough to realise the role of mothers either, I'd get angry at her sometime or be in mood swings for little things (ie. not allowing me to come home late, dress cool, date guys,.. etc.). Later, I only knew her value when i grew up and she was gone.

If she's her today, I'd fix everything and work hard to be in healthy relationship with her. i'd buy her gifts and flowers not only on mother's days but every weekend. This is what I do now, with any kind mother I meet. I'm obsessed with mothers especially those who are young-souls and caring.