CCL, don't give up. Just change focus. Forget society and trying to be acceptable and normal and whatever. How about YOU? How about just getting well for YOU. To know what stability is, what clarity is, what it is to be in touch with reality and to be able to think your own thoughts. To possess your mind as your own and govern it with your own volition. Man, just saying the words, I can almost taste it ... it's a feast and it's waiting for us. All we need to do is seek it out and exercise a little patience ... trust me it will be worth it!!!