T1 had “intense negative contertransference” for me

This is why he hurt me so much, he would never admit that of course.

His construction of “reality” is different from mine.

I do not accept that just because he was (and is) a T that he is any way superior to me, or that he is always right.

What does acting in or acting out mean, when a therapist does this?

Btw I have considered speaking to him again. Since I was somewhat of a test bear for him he would not be disinterested in hearing from me again. He never said “don’t contact me” - he never needed to.