I won't get into what you deserve. You would do well to get into counseling. With a skilled therapist, you might take a hard look at your approach to having a relationship, which I think is very problematic. Otherwise, whether you resume this relationship, or more on to another, you are headed for a lot of trouble in life.

It sounds like this young man you describe and you, yourself, have some maturing to do before either one of you can be successful in a "spousal" relationship.