My first T became really out of touch with reality by the end. He was projecting all sorts of things onto me, including stories about my apparent past that I never told him and they never happened to me. Using that stuff to explain to me why I had very intense negative transference to him. I don't even know where he got the stories, maybe another client, his own past, or just imagination. It was sort of amazing, but not in a good way.


Mine became very emotional and defensive whenever I challenged him in the end. Would react explosively like a hurt kid, then immediately become sentimental and manipulative. And would never take responsibility for it and turn it back onto me. I wasn't even angry anymore at times and just watched in disbelief.


I went back to mine after a year of not seeing him because he talked me into going to discuss what went wrong in my therapy. I did not feel like I needed closure or anything but was curious about it. It was a very bad idea, because he started acting the same way again and then I got stuck in wanting to take revenge for his manipulating me and all. It was hard to leave it and it got under my skin in ways it would have never happened had I not gone back. I was actually thinking that I understood how negative transference is initiated by manipulative, narcissistic people - except that mine did not happen in childhood, he started it for me right there with his behavior. I still react strongly to people showing similar things, which wasn't really the case before.

The T did not actually seem to have negative feelings for me, more the opposite, until I started challenging him and calling him out on his BS. I think that was his trigger, and it makes sense because he talks quite a bit about his messed up childhood, overly critical parents, and the mother who abandoned him on social media. None of those things happened to me, but he projected it onto me, I think. I was critical and I dumped him, twice.