So I seem to have become preoccupied with the thought that everyone hates me. I don't even know why this started to be honest. I considered my work colleagues to be friends/acquaintance but have noticed a couple of occasions when some of them have hung out on the weekend and not invited me. I asked why I wasn't invited and was told "we spoke about the outing a couple of weeks ago". I wasn't reminded about it or directly asked if I wanted to come so it seems they didn't want me to be there.

I always felt excluded and unpopular in high school so I guess this brought back those feelings. I get jealous when I think someone likes other people more than me and I know that is ridiculous. I have one close friend outside of work and the three others that I have have moved to another state. I am convinced I am unlikeable so I don't see the point in trying to make new friends. I think I am boring, annoying, unattractive etc. so I don't see the point in trying to date either. I am almost 27 and I have only been a two month relationship because I am too afraid of getting close to someone. I have now become so used to being alone I am scared to change.

Not sure what I am asking for here, just needed to vent.