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Old Oct 07, 2018, 11:04 AM
Anonymous32895
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Originally Posted by Balthascar810 View Post
Most in my shoes
Would have chose,
The gang of lost boys
Over toughing it out alone.
That was somehow
An easier option.
A slow suicide.
At least there were
Others to relate to
Whose lives were
As bleak as yours.
Who you could
Escape reality with.
Who stopped caring
About what others thought.
To hell with it.
We all die one day.
And once drugs
Talks hold, getting
Clean isn't just kicking
The chemicals.
There must still be,
A chance to live.
Over giving up.
What I thought
I was missing out
On at the time,
Actually set me
In good stead.
My parents firmness
Went to the extreme,
From an outsiders eye,
But I was used to it
And my skin had thickened,
To make it through
My school days.
But they made
Me determined to
Not ever take
Take the easy way out.
In my mind, if
I didn't go on
Courses to help
With job hunting
And building a cv.
They would have
Made my life
In their home, more
Miserable and unbearable.
So if I began seeing
Perth, and his muckers.
The tension would,
Reach boiling point
And then what?
So the fear of
Being made homeless
Loomed over my head.
They didn't let
Me drink too much
Never mind pal
About with people
Or a crowd renowned
For drug use.
In our local
My family would
Say, you've had a few
Now soft drinks.
It was an order
Not a request.
But they had my
Best interests at heart.
I think that Fred
Sticking by me,
Made them have second
Thoughts about letting me stay.

So David eventually saw
That resting was ok.
But they would not
Have had me lounge
Around day in day out.
A Chill out day
Here and there
Was permissible. And
When I was let go
Before a three month
Trial my mum said
I had went back
Far too soon.
When I got a job
Upstairs in a high
Street shop, they
Didn't question why
I quit. Because mum
Got a job in a
Different department in
The same shop and
It was too close
For comfort for us both.
After me being at home,
All That time when
I was so busy before
Rehab. We needed a
Bit of space apart.
I lied about the
Reason why I was
Let go before the
Trial at the next place.
They never clicked it
Was three months again.
It was almost a white lie.
Because they WERE
Set to lay people off.
Me and Fred went
On out first
Holiday together and
We were ok. We
Didn't argue. We had
A fried breakfast
Every morning. Walked
To the zoo. Went
On the Pepsi max and
Drank wine on the piers.
I was still feeling
Under the weather
That would have been
Over six months
After rehab. I
Took 5htp supplement
To help my mood.
And got by
For three years
On the dreaded olanzapine.
Was a horrible drug.

Last edited by Anonymous32895; Oct 07, 2018 at 11:18 AM.