Hey everyone !!

So I just had a question about something that not a lot of people in my life are able to help me with so I am hoping that someone who has gone through a similar situation can give me a bit of insight .

So i have been in a really bad domestic violence situation is the past where I had left me with a lot of ptsd and at first when I got out of it I would have nightmares and flashbacks about certain incidents that occurred but slowly I started to forget about it and I stopped having nightmares and flashbacks leading me to believe that I have gotten over it until .. my ex came back into my life a changed man and I don’t know if it was loneliness but it seemed like a good idea to get back with him (because our child).Things were awesome at first and he was really good and I could tell he had really changed until we got into our first argument and then I slowly found myself holding back from him even though he hadn’t done anything to me and I slowly started self sabbotoging my relationship and I found myself afraid to talk to him and be honest wit what I am feeling in fear that we would fight even though he has always reassured me that things will be ok. My question is if this is normal or not . I can’t tell if it’s my commitment issues or if I hadn’t gotten over the past .

Hope this wasn’t too long and I wasn’t rambling .

Any advice is appreciated !