I lost a lot to this illness in my 30’s and 40’s: a 20 year marriage, my CPA career, my home, my car, my investments, my mind. What I did not lose was my life and it was a really close call. I’ve grieved at the time and life I lost but choose to focus on the fact that I’m alive and I can make the rest of my life the best of my life.
It’s ok to be mad and/or to grieve but also try to focus on moving forward if possible. Best wishes.