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Originally Posted by Sisabel
Has he always been this way? People aren’t always themselves when they are terminally ill and have taken a turn for the worst. It sounds like you’re very unhappy. I cannot tell if it’s the illness or the relationship itself getting you down the most... it sounds quite complicated and I hope you have someone to turn to for support.
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He's always been this way. That's why we have separate apartments. I am staying at his place a lot, or he'ld have to be in a nursing home.
He handles being ill with real bravery. Never complains about his limitations. Told me tonight he didn't mean to sound critical. He can be stupid at times.
This was never, ever a nice healthy relationship. Having him in my life was better than not having him in it. I love him. I believe he loves me.
At times I am very unhappy. Too often. But I am content a lot too. It is complicated. I am prone to mood swings. Other than each other, there isn't much support for either of us. I have a friend I meet with now and then. Our families are far away.
I do well for intervals. Then I have tailspin. This has been a bad one. It would be silly to say that this is all because he made a thoughtless remark. I'm always poised to fall off the edge.