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Old Oct 08, 2018, 08:20 AM
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That's a little something more than I even anticipated of him, to acknowledge what he had said to you.

I do recall many a thread about questioning if you were putting more energy into this relationship than getting in return.

I do worry for you as you do write about teetering at that emotional edge. I'm glad to read that you aren't isolating of yourself and you have someone you could meet up with if even for a coffee.
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Originally Posted by Rose76 View Post
He's always been this way. That's why we have separate apartments. I am staying at his place a lot, or he'ld have to be in a nursing home.

He handles being ill with real bravery. Never complains about his limitations. Told me tonight he didn't mean to sound critical. He can be stupid at times.

This was never, ever a nice healthy relationship. Having him in my life was better than not having him in it. I love him. I believe he loves me.

At times I am very unhappy. Too often. But I am content a lot too. It is complicated. I am prone to mood swings. Other than each other, there isn't much support for either of us. I have a friend I meet with now and then. Our families are far away.

I do well for intervals. Then I have tailspin. This has been a bad one. It would be silly to say that this is all because he made a thoughtless remark. I'm always poised to fall off the edge.
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Thanks for this!
Rose76