I have a psych doc once in a while but that will stop since I do not need medication. I just needed a diagnosis to apply for welfare. They do not care about what goes on inside people's heads. They just want them cleared and sent on their way.

They do not have knowledge and they do not care. My therapist helped the doc with my diagnoses, same clinic. Doc wanted me to be schizoid and ADHD but she made him write RAD and dissociation.

I did not want or need self knowledge in the past but now that I do, no one cares. There are no experts. That is why I ask here and not one of them. At least therapist had some valid points bit her education seemed very basic. I do not see her anymore because I used up my number of times.

I spent most of my life in nature so I think maybe I was shaped from that. I am used to everything around me being alive.

I do not see or hear them. There is no communication. It is more I know they are out there, I feel what is in nature has its own soul and personality. I know I cannot explain it right.

It is like this thing is encoded in everything. Like if I see patterns in nature they make sense to me. Like maths almost. It is like other people only see one dimension.

Also wild animals do not shy away from me, I have petted moose and deer and that is normal to me.

It is nothing that is bad that needs to be treated, I just want to know more about this.