I saw my new GP today to go over my CT scan and weight loss stuff. The CT scan showed that I have spinal stenosis in my low back now. Fun. She told me I'm getting old. haha. Thanks for reminding me. I'll be 34 in 10 days. I was hoping I'd feel better by 34. Oh well.

As far as the weight loss stuff, she put me on phentermine. Basically amphetamine. How to treat your ADHD on the sly ask for weight loss meds. MAN my FOCUS has been amazing today. I feel like massaging data in Excel. Haha. hey man, got any of that data? I don't think I'm going to take this stuff every day because my tolerance of stimulants builds up quick. But seriously I have 80 more lbs to lose. Already lost 75 lbs.

Going to start phasing out sugar tomorrow. The horror. I was doing good without sugar before June but then started the horrible time of coming off tramadol and one of the ways to combat opiate withdrawal is to load up on sugar. I need to be better with my diet too. Maybe not eat potatoes with EVERY meal. haha. man I love potatoes. I get my potatoes at the farmers market. I get purple ones and they're amazeballs. They're small potatoes. I need to chill with the dairy too, but I love it. It makes all my joints hurt though. Real milk from grass fed cows is amazing. Thinking about it makes me want to go get a cup of it. Haha. Maybe I should make a protein shake with it. I still haven't had dinner and I didn't eat lunch. I will try to do better tomorrow. At least eat more for breakfast. I wasn't that hungry this morning so just had a protein shake and a sausage patty. Yes, whole diet is to basically load up on protein and veggies. I'm allergic to so many things that's about all I'm left with to eat. TBH I'm losing this weight so maybe my ****ing back will stop hurting and my cholesterol will get to an acceptable level. My cholesterol has always been in the 250s and the LDL 180+. Now my cholesterol is 224 and LDL is 158 so getting close to more normal numbers. My fasting blood glucose went down a lot already so that's cool. It's always been 99-100 for years. Last test it was 82. I'd rather not get diabetes. I know that's something that can happen with taking antipsychotics. I really don't give a **** what i look like. I just want to be healthy and not feel like death all the time. I'm hoping by 35 I feel better, maybe I'll be able to get a part time job and make some money by then.

Anyways, I'll stop rambling. <3