T1 did not try not to mess up. And did not own his mess ups. Very much like my parental units who messed up, let me down, abused me.. far more than the “average” parent who is good enough.

As T1 messed up repeatedly, didn’t own his shortcomings, and forced a termination at a time I particularly needed therapy...

I’m still processing this. Just like a good therapist will not force a client to “move on” and “move out” .. unless it’s already been discussed that the therapy has a particular time limit, I’m not forcing myself to “move on” when I still have new insights about this appalling therapy and other things.

I had thought of going back for one session. But I’m now thinking I won’t. This T had a destructive narcissistic pattern which he showed to me in multiple hurtful words.. and acted it out. I guess part of me had thought he might have
changed, matured somewhat. But it could be more likely he has got “worse” .. and is even more divisive into who is “worthy” of his time or not. Sorry dude, I’m just as worthy as any of your other “patients”. Eff him

I also looked up a couple of other therapists online. I haven’t got any further with that. I had phoned a few a couple of weeks ago.