I'm just job hunting.
Chilling out for just now.
There is a training
Opportunity coming up
And coach won't be at it.
I didn't know What to say.
I just nodded, saying ok
I'll have to think about it
I'm a bit out of practice.
Their comment was so helpful.
Nobody told me to rest
And take time out.
It had the underlying message:
You need to take time out to rest.
Nobody had put it
In this nice fashion.
My doctor did their job.
They didn't try and
Dictate my life.
Nobody close to me
Said if I rested then
I could get back, to
The normal humdrum.
There's no shame
In taking time off
When your unwell.
It is still an illness,
Like a physical one
And it takes time to heal.
I wish I'd taken
Time to heal
And I may have only
Been really sick once.
But the way my families
Faith in me, dissolved
The minute I left
The hospital rehab facility,
Stuck with me.
I couldnt forget
How I was classed
"Unfixable" because that
Was "word on the street."