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And what makes it harder is when people have different ways of expressing their anger or sadness, sometimes you just cannot read them, and you get mixed reactions and you wonder if they are upset, or just being mean.

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I can relate to this esp. when my hubby raises his voice or gives me a certain tone of voice. I immediately turn it into a defensive on both our parts. I take his remarks to heart and I get hurt right away by how he reacts to certain circumstances. After nearly 5 yrs of marriage I still feel intimidated and put off by him sometimes but for the most he is a very loving and giving man. I do admit too that I play the silent act until he comes to me and wants to make up. I admit I get off on how he apologizes and wants to kiss and make up. I also tend to get the blues and feel close to wanting to end my life when I am on my period.
My depression was worse in my first marriage because I was so devasted when my husband told me he didn't want to have any kids with me and because I felt trapped in a unhappy marriage. My periods of depression aren't as severe as they were back then.