Hello sickly: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral.

You wrote you don't "have crazy mental illness". But, from what you worte, it sounds to me as though you may be struggling with depression. I'm not a mental health professional though. So that's just my personal opinion. There is a forum, here on PC, dedicated to the subject of depression. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/depression/

And then here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, that may be of interest:

Am I Depressed or Just Lazy?

An Overview of Depression

In-Depth: Living with Depression

The Value of Hobbies | Thrive

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...d-new-hobbies/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.