I was supposed to go to the phlebotomist yesterday and couldn't get myself to go. Then I planned to go this morning and didn't. I should definitely go tomorrow morning, but I'm afraid it will be tough because I have to stay up later than usual tonight. Thursday will be the latest I can go. It has to be in the morning because they are fasting tests.

I've not been that well for a while. I have good moments or hours, but overall I've been debating whether I'm just "blah so-so" or actually mildly depressed at times. That's what I'll say to my psychiatrist when I see him this afternoon.

I'm supposed to go to the first class of an adult school class tonight. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I'm only going to satisfy my husband. He has some idea for future work that I'm totally not into. This class is supposed to help me with one aspect of his idea. Who knows. Maybe it will be better than I think.

I've lost interest in just about everything except eating. And my eating has mostly been unhealthy eating. My blood test results will likely be bad.

My hair looks horrible. Not just because I haven't washed it or tried to make it look better, but because the last two hair cuts weren't good, and my hair quality has gotten worse. I also spend much of my day lounging in bed, so I have bed head, but when my hair was better I didn't get bed head, even lounging an equal amount of time.

Should I push myself to shower and wash/style my hair before seeing my psychiatrist? Or deliberately let him see my usual physical appearance?