Today was pretty decent, although I am having back pain and really need to get to the doctor. Also feeling a little nervous about needing to get a breast US although my GYN thinks it unlikely that it is anything serious. Got prescribed birth control to possibly help stabilize my moods with my periods, but I am also scared to try that because of bad experiences in the past with my moods.
I am going to see my psychiatrist in 2 day and I am kind of excited that I will be in a good mood for once and feeling well mentally. I was in a "good" mood once when I saw him on the lamotrigine, but also super irritable and feeling impulsive and unstable so it wasn't really my baseline. I think it will be good to be able to talk to him while doing well so he kind of knows what we should be aiming for haha. Too bad I will probably be doing awful again in like 10 days, but at least this is a break.