Thanks everyone for the responses.
IRemembermyfirstbee I didn't know the VA system was like that, I can understand that making you uncomfortable. I also can imagine how reading them could be uncomfortable. For my system, I cannot read anything besides my meds--even the stuff listed like the light therapy is not in my patient portal, but clearly other providers can see more than me.

Wild Coyote, it didn't occur to me that it wouldn't be private when I went from the clinical trial to seeing my psychiatrist separately. I think it is probably just my treatment plan not the specific notes, and that details are confidential, but not sure?

Blueberrybook glad you are so comfortable with your psychiatrist. That's interesting they didn't tell you about the diagnosis right away. I plan to ask my psychiatrist directly for my diagnoses when I visit next to make sure they haven't changed things without telling me haha.