My eating disorder is back. I’m drinking solely water and eating a very small meal. I’m depressed and hoping I make it to my husband’s birthday. I wouldn’t want to ruin that. He’s depressed too. He’s thinking of dropping out of school again. Our car died today there’s no fixing it. So we have no car for the foreseeable future. Lucky there’s public transportation. However my son’s classes are at night So I don’t know what we’ll do. My son has huge open wounds because of his picking. There each the size of a cigarette burn and it’s all over his face, his arms, his legs, his back just everywhere and he’s bleeding all over the place. I’m at a loss of how to help him. I recently went up to 200mg of lamictal. Hopefully it’ll help me. I do recognize my family needs me even if it’s just financially. I’m in a dark place with no help out. I may end up IP and I don’t really care if I do.